Thursday, April 23, 2009

Spewings of a worried mind


The last couple of months have been a roller coaster to say the least,. to list the events in chronology – deliver a kid, learn to change diapers/burp at 2am in the morning with eyes closed, have a non functioning gall bladder laproscopically removed, deal for a week with a nanny from hell and finally get back to the job. The job being the easiest in the whole cycle. The only way I got through was the support from friends and family. The offers for help were numerous and instantaneous. To all of them, I can only say thank you. No words can express the gratitude felt, when you see the world closing in around you, but you know you are protected by the ones who care.


So two and half months of being a mother, and funnily I have changed . Not only physically ( the 20 pounds still remain :(! ) but my attitude towards the world has evolved. Hearing of war and violence now seems to reverberate more than it did before. I mean the worst that could happen before is I could get hurt, but to think that your child will even have a shadow falling over them seems to scare the dickens out of me.

On a lighter note, my friends are rolling on the floor laughing on my renditions of carnatic classics. My lil one seems to like MSS songs and the Tamil/Telugu/Sanskrit on my lips seem to be a foreign language. Thank God, it will take another year, before V can close her ears by herself or ask me to shut up.

There were certain things which scared, worried and made me scratch my head through these months and I wanted to post individual posts, but this is summarized version.

The slayings of Kalathats happened in my neck of the woods. No sane man would kill children especially his own and also his 11 month old baby niece. I pray for Abha appu, his wife. When she wakes up ,has to register that she cant touch or hear or speak to her children anymore and the reason they aren’t around, is because their father went nuts and killed them all . I keep wondering if I have passed by Abha grocery shopping or smiled at her kids on the carts. Every family looks so normal but the stress and troubles of being alone in a foreign land can never be forgotten. Maybe if this was India, she could have asked a neighbor for help or walked out knowing her family was nearby. Being alone, with your passport taken away isolated Abha and Devan’s little act of aggressiveness slowly grew to the killing of 6 people. Domestic Violence is real and just because the person is an engineer in a great company doesn’t diminish the monster hiding underneath.

The passing of the Iranian law which makes Marital rape legal. How is this world civilized if men in the name of religion keep trampling on women’s rights? The protesters of the law were stoned and spit on by the men gathered. The laws also want woman to ask the man’s permission before they leave the house. I don’t get it! In a world of rapidly evolving technology and sciences, why should religion be used a weapon against women everywhere. Wouldn’t life be so much simpler if science and religion integrate to create a peaceful world, where everyone is equal.

The Octo mom is another sore point. For those souls who thankfully don’t get US media, this woman gave birth to octuplets . For those going cho chweet, a couple of facts. She’s single, lives with her mother, has 6 kids already ,2 of those kids are on disability and one is autistic and all her 14 kids have been conceived through fertility treatments. This woman now gets charity contributions pouring in for her kids welfare, an organization which pays $135,000 per month to nannies, paparazzi paying thousands for the kids picture and the icing on the cake, she has made enough money to buy a house for $500,000. So I’m really irritated with the Kaiser Permanente team (d0ctors) for letting her have the procedure and keep 8 eggs. It’s plain to see she’s after fame and money and using kids to get there is really sickening. In a country where people are loosing their jobs and surviving on food stamps, she is making a living out of selling her kids on news media.

Finally the soaps that are shown on Indian tamil channels etc. Every plot includes – Scheming mother in law, crying daughter in law /mother, lousy father, amazing father in law, husband and his second wife., The acting is lousy, the scheming is repetitive and the crying can fill up the deserts of Africa with water. So why are so many people addicted to these negative emotions. Why does it become personal when husband throws wife one out and brings in wife two. Don’t we have enough on our plates with recession and ignorant politicians .

So those were my my rantings for the last month, I am trying to be more regular with my posts and comments, so hopefully this is a new beginning.

The following are some quotes from the late George Carlin,which made me smile and think , hope you all do the same

Atheism is a non-prophet organization.

By and large, language is a tool for concealing the truth. Death is caused by swallowing small amounts of saliva over a long period of time.

Don't sweat the petty things and don't pet the sweaty things.

Have you ever noticed that anybody driving slower than you is an idiot, and anyone going faster than you is a maniac?

I think people should be allowed to do anything they want. We haven't tried that for a while. Maybe this time it'll work.

I was thinking about how people seem to read the Bible a whole lot more as they get older; then it dawned on me - they're cramming for their final exam.

I went to a bookstore and asked the saleswoman, "Where's the self-help section?" She said if she told me, it would defeat the purpose.

I'm always relieved when someone is delivering a eulogy and I realize I'm listening to it.


If it's true that our species is alone in the universe, then I'd have to say the universe aimed rather low and settled for very little

If you can't beat them, arrange to have them beaten.


Keep Smiling ppl
Anu

7 Comments:

Blogger CM-Chap said...

Oh girl.. you gone thru so much in last few months. Glad you are back... Missed you :)

Hope the lil one is doign well & keeping you busy all day all night :)

The extra 20 pounds not gonna be easy to shed.. All my friends who became mom are still cribbing about it.

Hope to see u more regular :)

9:44 PM  
Blogger uma kumar said...

hi anu,
thats a great achievement..i mean posting in ur blog with a infant in ur lap.
and to think straight and to write thought provokingly...is a feat by itself.
the lady with the octuplets is really specimen of sorts..the media is to be blamed..like jane goody ...u sell death ,kids etc for money and publicity
take care
whats the name of the little angel

3:52 AM  
Blogger Keshi said...

Motherhood visits Anu...how lovely. :)

I dunno how but I've seen some women who gave birth to babies shed their extra kilos in a matter of few weeks! I think u CAN do it, if u really WANT to.

All the best hun!

Keshi.

7:04 PM  
Blogger Fantasies of a Lifetime said...

Good to know lil V is keeping u on ur toes , loved the jokes , made me realize how much i missed ur writing , do keep blogging often :D

9:11 AM  
Blogger Anu said...

CM: Will try to be more regular, and yeah i know 20 pounds will never melt

@Uma: Thks and it was tough. K doesnt want me to reveal her name, in keeping with Blog's tradition so I call her V for now :)!

@Keshi: You give me hope
@Priya :Thanks Sweety

11:58 AM  
Blogger SMM said...

I dn't know how I missed your blog update. Sowieeeeee

So your posting with the little one on your lap. Another few months and I'm going to make you put up a special post for those of us confused about when to have children and the responsibility of a little one. I'm just so frightened by the entire idea of having a life totally dependent on me and one that I am wholly responsible for

6:23 AM  
Blogger Ani said...

hehe cant help but smile.. am sure u r enjoying the joys of motherhood.. n constantly on ur toes as well.. oh well.. am sure u'll love and cherish it always..

take care..huggggzzzz :)

7:20 AM  

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