Wednesday, September 29, 2004

Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds…..

Don’t even ask me why but this song keeps playing in my head the whole day

"Picture yourself in a boat on a river,with tangerine trees and marmalade skies.

Somebody calls you, you answer quite slowly,a girl with caleidoscope eyes.
Cellophane flowers of yellow and green,towering over your head.
Look for the girl with the sun in her eyesand she's gone.

Lucy in the sky with diamonds
,Lucy in the sky with diamonds,
Lucy in the sky with diamonds, ah, ah."

According to the Beatles, one day in 1967, Lennon's son Julian came home from nursery school with a finger painting that he said was of his classmate, four-year-old named Lucy O'Donnell. Showing the artwork to his father, young Julian described the picture as "Lucy - in the sky with diamonds".

But for me the song takes me on a rather soulful plane. its as if there a piece of you that you leave behind along with your childhood dreams of happy faces, marshmallow pies.. and flowers which waver so high above you. I think we loose the wonder of innocence as we move along. Everything becomes so jaded and you loose the sense of excitement that you felt when you discover something new. Its a attitude of I’ve seen that and been there before. Yesterday , I looked up at a night clouded sky and the play of the colors in the night sky took my breath away and I caught a sudden twinkle of the stars… that’s when I think the gal with Kaleidoscope eyes peeked thru me again..:).So I think Im going back to discover what I lost along the way

Joke as promised:
A man in a bar sees a friend at a table, drinking by himself.
Approaching the friend he comments, "You look terrible. What's the problem?" "My mother died in June," he said, "and left me Rs.10,000." "Gee, that's tough," he replied. "Then in July," the friend continued, "My father died, leaving me Rs.50,000." "Wow. Two parents gone in two months. No wonder you're depressed." "And last month my aunt died, and left me Rs.15,000." "Three close family members lost in three months? How sad." "Then this month," continued, the friend, "nothing!"

Friday, September 24, 2004

Coming of Age…

Well my wisdom tooth has decided to make an appearance… I know Coming of Age is difficult , but this really painful.. When I told people my agony ridden situation , they decided to regale me with the teeth horror stories… what happened to “congrats” I wonder. I think my blogs and wisdom are interconnected, the minute I tell everybody how I feel, my tooth pops out.

I was watching the HBO movie “ Door to Door” yesterday. For the unknown, its about a person affected by cerebral palsy from birth , who makes it as a salesman . Talk about feeling alone, this guy has to sell soap to the worst route of the Watkins company. It struck me, (physically too- my roomie thru an apple at my head -again painfully wisdom dawned ) The amount of cribbing I was doing about the attitudinal problems of some of my colleagues did not even hold a candle to what this guy went through .This guy really immersed himself into their lives such that the entire neighborhood was connected through him..thats inspirational to me !!

Somehow I feel we require these inspirational stories- atleast once in a while to get us out of our normal humdrum life and try to make something special out of life. Atleast people must think of you with the smile on their face. Well so I am going to try and do something abt it…starting this post I will end most of my posts with my favorite joke for the week/month /day…atleast ppl will read my blog with a smile on their face.

“Eleven people were hanging on a rope under a helicopter, ten men and one woman. The rope was not strong enough to carry them all, so they decided that one has to leave, otherwise they are all going to fall. They were not able to name that person, until the woman held a very touching speech.
She said that she will voluntarily let go of the rope, because as a woman she is used to giving up everything for her husband and kids, or for men in general, without ever getting anything in return. As soon as she finished her speech, all the men started clapping their hands.......”

PS: Guys don’t start giving me nasty comments, I couldn’t resist


Monday, September 20, 2004

Driving Me

Did you ever want something so badly that you knew it was wrong but wished for it all the same…

Well I am going through the same thing right now… I want a particular position, which I think I will get only if god decided to kill a person and drastically change another’s mind :) … Jokes apart, something bad happened to the person whose position I am kinda vying for… n I am kinda feeling guilty.. I had nothing to do with it.. but I had hoped that something would happen to get me in a lets say more favorable position

But I Know if I get this position it will be longer hours and both physically and emotionally wrenching, but I still want it, and “the obsession:” as I deem it has grown with time . Rationally I know it’s absolutely wrong for me, but a deep dark hidden place in me beckons it…

Is this drive something which take me places higher or drag me down into a hole I wonder ?

Sorry feeling terribly torn today.. I guess watch too much of the GOD channel:>

Friday, September 17, 2004

Shocked and kinda disgusted....

Just when I think that India is improving… something happens which brings me back to reality…

A colleague of mine, who stays in Bangalore narrated the incident to me… on Tuesday night, my colleague and his wife were returning at around 9.30 after shopping trip.. on the Airport Road,,, which is usually jam packed till late midnight!! Opposite the Manipal hospital an next to the Leela Palace hotel at the signal, they noticed a bunch of guys stopping a car with about 4 girls in it, they stopped the car and started pounding it with hockey sticks.. the 6 foot burly driver had in the mean time ran across the road and was watching the spectacle. Some of the other vehicle owners decide to intervene (including my colleague).. however they soon stopped when one of them mentioned that the brutal group may have a gun, by this time one of the guys was pulling out one of the gals and thrashing her around for daring to leave him.. my colleague and some others drove forward and found a cop…

now lets get the situation straight… there are 5 guys pounding 4 gals with hockey sticks 100 meters down the road and what does the cop say “ITS NOT MY JURISDICTION”……………….

The 'do /try gooders'tried to contact the airport road police station on the phone, however as usual, noone took up the phone..similarly with the womens cell!! My colleague decided to continue home, with his wife praying for the girls safety…

I am disgusted at nearly all parties(excluding the gals here!! They were badly beaten to criticize them more is inhuman!! )
1) My colleague mentioned that these guys were normal educated looking 23-25 yr olds.. not a rowdy bunch that we see at the why do some educated men think its birthright to thrash girls
2) My colleague , the driver and all the so called men who tried to help… they could have intervened in some way here..they just continued home… for gods sake…so what if those guys had a gun..they could have rushed into Leela or Manipal hospital and called local security
And finally and not the least our honored Police force……

“NOT my Jurisdiction ..what Kind of reply to that…Cmon!!!!! Forget that’s its their job and they have taken a oath to protect the people… but to be afraid to face a couple of guys ..maybe due to the redtape , is pathetic..and sickeining

Basic human tendency is to help has somehow been lost in this maddening world of “u live in your world and I in mine”!!!!!!

I am not degrading the entire force or the stronger sex.. I am sure there are a few noble souls out there who help ..someone actually reported it in the papers, but it seems it was given a few lines in the corner a daily

And yes to top it all off.. I mentioned this incident to a couple of my colleagues, some sympathized, some were enraged, some had the attitude “what can anyone do”… and the WORST one…”the girls probably deserved it!!!!!!!”

That Shocked me… do people actually think its OK to thrash other people around, if they deem that they have done some wrong,,, is it ok to hurt somebody if that person thinks it right??

Thursday, September 09, 2004


Looking at the depressive series of India vs. England, ( we finally managed to win one ..thank gosh..all those puja’s in various corners of India helped ), I just started thinking about we score more if we cross the boundary, however in reality it works the other way, if you cross a boundary – it can be physical or mental , a person is rudely told to stay within their limits…do we cross boundaries for a better understanding or is it invading space/authority ??!!

For those of you confused, let me just say that I deal with a Sr. Manager- lets call him A, who absolutely vanishes off planet earth , when ever he wants to… he thankfully, has an assistant B, who helps everybody out. The other day, B sent me a list of details urgently required to be sent to our HQ without asking A first (as usual he was nowhere to be found) , now A rematerializes ,acting affronted that his authority was undermined. walked around in a huff the whole week sending curt reminders that he was the boss.

I also see around me a boundary built by language… yes I know India is the melting pot of cultures.. but in office (atleast mine) , the people talking the same language cluster together.. even my roommates who are very sweet north Indians , seem to freeze when I am around. …I try and talk in hindi and all I get are laughs and patting on the back.. There actions though polite has a barrier which I feel I cant seem to get through

So who decides these boundaries- a lot of people think it’s the organization/society… but come on..
don’t these boundaries exist in our own mind. So I ask …breaking boundaries…good or bad??